Why can't I change?

Ok,

So I did end up getting a new phone plan, and it doesn't seem too bad. It's with Telus, so I kept my cell # and the phone my Dad gave me. I have unlimited incoming calls, unlimited evenings after 5pm and unlimited weekends. I only have 100 or 150 weekday minutes, but since I'm at work anyways, I figure it won't be a problem (I hope!) I also have 100 long distance minutes a month, so All of you long distance people better start calling me.

Work is going well - the people there are all really nice. I'm also supposed to be picking up some shifts back at Alekos on Friday nights, so hopefully I will have a little extra money as well. I worked last night as well, which was actually good as I am a little rusty and I'm working Friday, which hopefully will be nice and busy, so it was good to get up to speed.


I'm actually sitting at work right now writing this. I have an hour for lunch, and today I had to cover reception while Carlie takes her lunch, and since I usually hang out with Carlie or Sarah, I have some free time. I normally run errands as I'm so close to Coquitlam Centre, but I didn't really feel like it today.

Now for the good stuff.


So, this morning while waiting for a customer to answer the phone, I was watching the seconds tick by on the clock on my phone. It got me to thinking how short life is and how we will never get the time back that we waste. I know, I know, that's a pretty big thought while listening to the phone ring, but it came about because I was thinking about how I am just sitting here calling people trying to collect money, and I just really want to be doing anything else. Now, don't get me wrong. I actually enjoy my job and the people I work with and I totally understand that in order to do the things we want, we need to work for it, but I feel like I'm spending so much time just waiting for the "next big thing."

I know I've posted on this before on the other blog, but I am still dealing with this problem. I can't seem to just enjoy life where I'm at in the present time. I mean, I can enjoy it, but I'm never happy. The grass is ALWAYS greener for me. I feel like I waste so much just biding my time and then it's done and gone. I worked my bum off all year last year and the result let me spend 4 glorious months in Europe doing whatever the heck I wanted. I promised myself that this year I wouldn't do that, that it wasn't worth it, but I'm backsliding into the same habits.

I was talking to Larry, the owner of Alekos, last night about my schedule. I had requested to work only Friday nights as I didn't want to take on too much and have no social life again. Then I got to thinking that well, if I'm working 1 shift, it's not really that much of a difference, but if I work 2.... I settled on every Friday night, plus a Saturday or Sunday shift every other week. I also picked up a shift for someone else for next Monday. Why do I do this??!!! It's not that I desperatley need the money (I should have my debt paid off by the end of this month) but I just can't seem to say no to something if it means it may bring about my goal a little faster.

Why why why why why???? I keep asking myself that.

On a completely different note, If anyone comes to visit our new place starting Dec. 1st, you MUST bring a Christmas tree ornament with you, preferably hand made. I would love to have beautiful, or not so beautiful depending on your crafting degree, ornaments for the rest of my life made by people I love!

I'm going to get back to work now,

Kim